Beary Angelic World of moi~

Cant help feeling sad.. Cried myself to sleep last night. Been awhile since i cried, not teared but cried. Some things said were meant to be listened, taken to heart, remembered, but you didnt bother. nothing to you is important. Everything are all normal conversation, goes into one ear, comes out from the other. Not bothered, not remembered. Even important stuffs which apparently is not important to you. Some words are hints, not meant to be said in full, but obviously you didnt get it.You didnt make the effort to put your heart into my words, that why you didnt get it.


Assumptions is what you are good at. And its always an excuse for you to get away with almost everything. Defensive is another thing you are good at, saying everything you said is true and not excuses.Lying is also another point, even for obvious reasons i know you are lying, you still say you are not. You know it yourself very well, that you are lying or not, me pressing you is just pointless, but you dont seem to feel guilty at all.

You said i know you well, but i only know your habits, not what you are thinking. You build a wall so high up that i cant get through it at all. Tried climbing a few times but fell and got hurt. Too tired to start climbing again. It takes time to heal but Im not sure how long.

Im just feeling so tired...too tired to stand up on my own...